w e a r n

a  teal  blue  glow  rises  beyond  the  curve  of  the  ocean  as
ribbons  of  yellow  and  syrup  gold
and  morning  curls  like  smoke  and  fills  the  sky
alight  aluminous  
the  sand  is  soggy  beneath  my  feet  
the  grey  water  laps  against  my  toes  
kissing  skin  they  curl  into  claws  from  the  cold
deep  into  the  glittery  mustard  laps  of  grain  
keeping  me  here

the  waves  come  in  with  heavy  throws  
the  white  water  gushes  and  folds  me  whole  having  my  fill  of  
your  salty  lips  
no  longer

there  is  a  grove  in  the  sand  where  you  should  be
hollowed  and  filled  out  decorated  shadow  settling  on  the  place  that  you  left    
i  am  wrong  and  i  might  have  wronged  but  what  did  i  do  so  wrong  to  you?  

i  am  blinded  by  you  
blindsided  
left  like  a  package  in  the  rain  to  spoil  and  spin  in  my  longing  for  you

did  i  not  bring  enough  love?  
enough  electricity  in  my  veins  to  excite  you

am  i  dull  or  uninteresting?  
why  must  you  think  like  that?  

what  a  wicked  thing  to  fall  out  of  love  with  someone  
i  find  it  impossible  
not  to  love  you.    
   

• 15 Jul 2016

   I  hadn’t  noticed  the  way  the  trees  on  the  street  had  grown  until  I  had seen,
   the  grip  of  longing  fingers  blooming  like  flowers  as  spring  rising  like
syrup  and  golden  honey,  
   decorated  the  horizon  in  dashes  of  golden  light.
   You  glide  so  kind  across  the  asphalt,  dousing  me  with  the  glow  of  iris light  and  deep  green  porcelain  spheres  and  the  drum  of  your  feet  is  a  beat  in  my  mind  that  I  dance  too.
   Devour  me  in  your  arms  as  you  do,  the  wool  of  your  woollen  coat smoky  like  suburbia  in  the  summer.  It  settles  across  my  skin,  
   a  layer  of  you,  
   that  I  wear  like  a  cloak  and  that  I  crave  for  like  hunger  and  thirst  and the  desire  to  be  worse  than  the  things  that  you  do  to  me,
  or  the  things  that  you  have  done,

  I  cannot  complain  of  the  distain  of  how  my  breath  it  held  when  I  was  with  you,
  An  intoxication  so  brief  I  think  that  maybe  you   were  really  a  dream  I  had  thought  up  myself.
 To  teach  me  how  not  to  love  you  when  I  do.

• 15 Jul 2016

s o n g s h e e t s  / / r a m b l i n g s

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Y O U    K N O W

Tuning: Standard

Capo: 3
Chords: AM, C, EM, G

How delightful,
The sun grows ripe and old and glows from the west,
Where you lay to rest your head, your bones

Your fever comes here,
Your fever drowns me surrounds me an empty sea,
You drag me down and I heave to breathe, when you are gone

But I’m not wrong,
And so I must go,
And you will grow to know what you lost

And you will know, what you lost,
And you will know, all he cost you,
And they will know, what we lost,
And they will know, what he cost you

~

And you will know, what you lost,
And you will know, all he cost you,
And you will know, what you lost,
And they will know, all he cost me too.

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M I L K    T E E T H

Tuning: Standard
Capo: 5

Chords:

You bloom in the spring,
It lights your eyes a golden green, like a sunrise, and sunlight bold

I’m a fox immersed in your skin,
My teeth they tear bone, white marrow,
All the words, you swallow, they are shown, when you are bothered,
By coffee stains in the summer, that shudder with a glitter light

But don’t forget me (x2)
When I leave, and when I do,
Don’t breathe a word about me, your milk teeth that I stole

And I’ll steal my kisses from you, as you sleep,
And you’ll prey on my weak thin limbs and take, my milk teeth,
But I don’t mind dear, I give you all my things, to share, to bare, to loan

Keep growing, I’m going away
And I’m sorry but I can’t stay
And I’m sure some other boy will show you the way,
Cos I just can’t be here today

I just can’t be here.

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H O W    H A R D

Tuning: Standard
Capo: 5
Chords: C, G, F,

And you don’t know how it feels,
To be the one who had to leave,
And you think this was easy for me?
When you were everything that I needed,
And you don’t know how it feels,
Your last words were hard for me to hear,
Now that is all I remember of you dear.

(x2)

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M O E S    S O N G

Tuning: Standard

Capo: 5
Chords:

You were like the first day of spring,
You were something I cannot explain,
How my love for you grows each day,
Although you are gone,
How my blood runs it gushes, flowing to you,
And although you are gone,
Please know you were loved by all

You were love (x2)
You were loved by all of me
You were love (x2)
You were loved by all of him too

Oh (x4)

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P O W D E R    B L U E

Tuning: Standard

Capo: 5
Chords:

Firelights,
A damped bright light, between your eyes,
And I’m not seeing right, blank skin bright white,
Blue moonlight,
The reaper called so I was thrown overboard,
And I’m afloat I’m drifting over waves of longing,
Your waves of longing

The fever hits, hollow bones I am scorn,
You cut my throat,
Weeping woes and thieving lovely and speaking gold,
Breathe all over but hardly speak with your haggard tongue,
Weeping so for the leaving gold that I have stolen,
That I have stolen (x4)

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S T A R V I N G

Tuning: Standard
Capo: 0

Chords: G

I am starving for you
And I would rather not
When I’m in a drought of your love
I can’t get enough, of you

And I won’t,
No I won’t wait,
No I won’t wait for you

You (x3)

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UNTITLED

sight
like-minded beasts, fargo don’t eat me all
leave a single bone and i am gutting gushing seething light
leave me for the devils bed
hungry eyes i prey on your breast
weep for me darling, weep for the rest
all these spectators paid to see you die

gobble me whole
eat my bones and leave me dead
leave me there i’ll die folly gold my fingers roll over your skin
but you’re not so soft anymore
i can’t close the door on my eyes they follow me
oh how silly of me to love you still
a fool a fool i’m a fool for you

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UNTITLED 

Hear me laughing, like the rest
Keep me starving, for your best
Hear me roaring, tearing chests
I’m a monster when I’m inside my head
But you take me there in the day
And I lay waste to all you brave for me
In the cold pillowing sun
Heavy words from heavy hearts our sheets are left undone
We were low and I was broke
We bespoke the words I choke on
And you’re a ghost in my hymns
But i feel you creeping in my sleep
And I wake cold, and I grow old
And I will pass this stone alone without you
Heave my heart heavy hold me
Lead me to the golden sea

You wont leave
And you wont leave me
You wont leave
You wont leave me

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UNTITLED

colour me gold i am a mouldy soul grasping hold to leaves on a bleak winters sleeve
we suffer for all we’re told and i’m alone until i’m sown
to tell you how i really feel

we were lords and we had conquered
we were all when we were soaring
be the best you’ll be to show to me
the colours that suit you well
are blinding me i can’t see hell
and maybe you’re the devil in me


hear me roaring, hear me shout
i am down but i am not down and out

take me to your show and keep me warm as we hurl through snow climbing up to our knees
your heavy arms i called home and without a rent base i am thrown
a coursing river rips through my seams
when you were gone i was torn and i was lost and i was growing
bitter as the wind in the evening storm
but how were you were you fine?
did you miss me lover i miss you now even more

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• 26 Jun 2016

The ramblings from an unreleased song of mine, ‘adore’. 

Rosy eyed, wake me by my side,
Lazy eyed, in the morning bright,
A golden disorder, how I loved you,
Loved you as you led me to the lonesome blues,
Hold me in,
Hold me, I am done,
We were young once and only some will make it out alive
And I’m a weak one,
And I can’t run for long,
And when will your love come?
Catch me on the run,
And I don’t know where I’ve gone,
But I find it hard to be someone, when I’m undone,
Or maybe I’m just lonesome?
Or maybe it’s your poison?
It rushes over my lungs, a black tar filling up my tongue,
How your name crawls, over my furry lips,
Mouldy where you left your spit, in the last kiss that I’ll ever cherish
I’m left outside tonight,
I’m drowning in your tide,
And winter’s cold without you, nestled by my side,
And I am drunk I’m left,
And I am drunk with regret,
That I never held your head,
Just moments before you left,
Would it be the same at all?
Will you come back I implore,
I miss you even more, than I did before,
And I can’t ignore, just what I adore 

I adored you

• 5 Jun 2016